I get distraught and genuinely freaked out when I have to travel by airplane.
I have only been on an airplane a handful of times.
I tried to drive whenever possible, even if it’s going to take a long time. I had to travel across the country for work last month and it was the first time I had been on an airplane in a few years. I took a Xanax the day before I left the house. I was feeling relaxed when I checked into the terminal. I sat outside of a pop shop with a danish and a hot cup of coffee. I watched all of the people that were walking by. There was a bathroom across the hall from the section where I was sitting and I could see all of them and people coming in and out. I saw a pilot walking out of the bathroom and he looked undoubtedly strange. I did not see any other pilots coming out of the bathroom, because the airline has a bathroom for their employees. I decided to go into the bathroom to see if anything was different and that was when I realized that the bathroom smelled like marijuana. There was absolutely no way for me to know whether or not the pilot was the person smoking marijuana, but I try to memorize what his uniform looked like. When I got on my own airplane, I was delighted to see that the pilots were not wearing the same uniform. I don’t know if I would have been able to get on the plane if I thought that our pilot was stoned.