My mom had a lot of pain at the end.
She tried to hide her pain, but I could see it in her eyes.
I heard her crying in the middle of the night, and would often sneak into her room and hug her. There were so many times when I would cuddle on her bed with her, and end up being awakened by my husband in the morning. If they had medical cannabis when she was alive, it may have taken some of her pain away. She may not have suffered so badly from the treatments the doctors were giving her. I wasn’t sure what I could do back then, but I know now. If I had to do it all over again, knowing what I know now, I may have gone to the streets to get her what she needed. I would have risked illegal marijuana since medical marijuana was people only thought about back then. Mom probably wouldn’t have lived with much longer with the medical marijuana, but it would have made her last days more easily tolerated and made her life happier. It is no longer an issue since they legalized medical marijuana several years ago. If only they could have legalized it ten years ago. I would have sold my house to get her medical marijuana ID card and enough medical marijuana to keep her comfortable. I’m glad that medical marijuana is available to others who suffer like my mom did. They don’t suffer nearly as much as she did, and I am happy for that turnaround in the laws..